@lambdagrrl Well, people who care for you musn't be far away, wether pushed away or not. Anyways, there are plenty of people to meet and discuss with and I'm sure there will be some that will appreciate you the way you are ! Also, I am pretty sure you can do some things rights (it's just sometimes it's hard to see it for the person doing it). And if you can't do some other things right, there will definitely be people here to help you ! It happens and you shouldn't blame yourself too hard (that's something that I commonly do, so I know it's not that easy though). Take care for yourself, I wish you a splendid day and nice moments to come your way ! :3

@lambdagrrl I can relate super hard to that feel. I think the experience is transient, though.