kitsch [active at chitter.xyz] @kitsch@witches.town

uh, 'generally floating around' as in like presences or vague feelings. (not as in internet friends.) to clarify.

the feeling of comfort i am recently getting with this particular stuffed animal (his name is Yoghurt, he is a floppy dog, i've had him since childhood) is similar to the feelings of comfort i get generally floating around, so maybe those snuggly energies get focused or better engaged here.

(Rhea also made a brief appearance but it was a separate dream)

in one of the dreams last night there was a brief appearance by Naoto Shirogane, and there was also some guy named Rover, and i like the rhythm of putting those names together. "Naoto and Rover (Adventures of)"

yells "im going to bed now" extremely loudly at top of lung to emphasize tiredness

snazzy boob

or those certain moods where i just

want to stick my face in someone's chest or neck or arm or

i'm not sure what puts me in certain moods where i just
get joyful energy just from seeing people who exist and are enjoying existing

and my job is to sit in this swivel chair in front of this big computer and occasionally fiddle with the dials in a way that looks important but isn't actually connected to anything

this is complicated a little by the urge to have "layers" of names as protection:
a name to use in shitty job environments that i hate being associated with. (ideally i'd use a throwaway name but that's not possible offline unfortunately.)
another for people offline who i'm amiable with but not comfortable with yet.
one or two for online, depending on the service or community's acceptance level.

but i think that's a secondary factor. the associations and environments are the main thing.


... and of course i still love getting nicknames all the time always nicknames are so good

i think i probably don't have a 'real' name.
like, the reason i usually like the names Kitsch and Fidget are because they're well-established for me in communities and with people who i feel comfortable and open with. they're not "true" names, but i'm prideful of them.

and, until i can be comfortable with anyone offline, and/or be in a job environment that doesn't grate horribly and doesn't remind me of the parents, there won't be any names i can use offline that won't feel actively bad.

i like that there were people on my route outside and i got to see them

this is a nice feeling morning

been sleeping with one of my stuffed animals again. it feels very nice

...a huge mess, but at least we got a ton of coconuts from the ordeal. Oh, hello there!

the honker becomes the honked

that's right bite

i keep watching this and laughing a lot