kitsch [active at chitter.xyz] @kitsch@witches.town

for reference https://twitter.com/got127official/status/965313474611073031 !

i saw a joke, ran my eyes over it, fully understood the joke, and then after about five seconds of continuing to stare i actually "-got-" the joke and laughed at it. thank u brain

listening to Sticky Things by Ceekayed, on loop. catchy little thing, might've linked it before. https://modarchive.org/module.php?37533

(rhea's not even my character, so that's another source of awkward feelings, but at this stage in the connection it's probably too late to worry about that. it'd only be an issue if i do something especially public for some reason.)

i ffffff... i don't even know. i've been pondering on whether to just embrace rhea as my internet persona, moreso than i had been.

i mean. there's a discomfort with it, because that discomfort is present with any character connection i have. i think i'm starting to understand why that is.

i swear it gets longer every year

[source http://hyenafu.tumblr.com/post/106722606539/rhea-how-long-is-your-tail-as-a-result-of-my] https://witches.town/media/qgnuoScRsUYjdX-cNkc

occam's pointy thing: the simplest hypothesis is often the simplest.

bork. bork. bork bork bork

hmm. hair is not food. arm and hand muscles, please don't try to put ponytail in mouth.

tired bite.

halfway descent

from a plural framing, i've heard feelings and thoughts that get repressed or distanced from can gain life of their own. i suppose this could be similar, but, hmmh.
from a more alterhuman framing, i can see how there'd be a push-pull of "this is what kitsch is, but this obviously isn't kitsch."

i mean, i'm sure there's multiple angles and core factors.
like rhea being tied into my internet image, and lion developing this feeling of separate coexistence. both of those would probably cause Weird Feelings in any case.

maybe i want to separate those from self-expression? would that actually make it any clearer or possible to process?

continuing on the train of thought of "these connections to characters are because they can express things that i want to but can't."

Real Life Kitsch is a cognitively impaired, tired, talentless, asocial deadweight in a capitalist country.
so she doesn't get opportunities to be snarky, or bubbly, or clever, & so on, though she _is_ those things. (?)

i guess it could be framed that these connections function as a sort of extension, then? with variable "closeness," explaining why they sometimes function as a "self," sometimes a "representation," & sometimes a soulbond-thingy.

i might be looking at the cause-effect backwards, though.

@ValentineVulpes Worst Kids high five heck yea

dreamed that a monster found me in my hiding spot, struck me on the head, and instantly woke me up with its hissing still filling my ears. pretty neat

bap

the only thing i immediately recall from dream is telling my companion that "i hate disney characters." (which i guess i do.)

wow! i'm in bed now