maybe to a degree it's an subconscious association. loud, casual, energetic, and making myself at home, etc. are things i'd often associate with Rhea.
the thing is, i'm pretty sure that it's still, to some degree, forced. an act.
or... being aware of a choice of phrasing, accepting it, having fun with it?
it feels nice to do.
except for the bit that feels bad when i... realize i'm acting, overdoing it(?) (compared to what would've come naturally had i not become aware of it?).