i think i probably don't have a 'real' name.
like, the reason i usually like the names Kitsch and Fidget are because they're well-established for me in communities and with people who i feel comfortable and open with. they're not "true" names, but i'm prideful of them.
and, until i can be comfortable with anyone offline, and/or be in a job environment that doesn't grate horribly and doesn't remind me of the parents, there won't be any names i can use offline that won't feel actively bad.
