i gotta wonder, is the only reason i believe lion exists somewhere: that i remember that feeling developing -before- i got tangled up in plural pondering, so it has something to it that's separate from my meddling?

i think i exaggerate those memories. i remember some feelings, but...

probably it is just: if any of this is 'real,' i'd hope it's lion. or someone who is basically lion.

idk. i noticed that thinking about him can put me into a sort of nonbinary-guy/demiboy feeling. is that a median/mirror thing? maybe?
or should i attribute that feeling to lion? probably not, because i tried that before and it didn't get me anywhere.