maybe
maybe instead of frustrations,
maybe i should write about why i want him here

the jerk-logic part of my brain says that i can't possibly know why i want him here if i don't know anything about him

but i think that's not entirely true, and if it was then it's not entirely an obstacle either
because i can just, go on my feelings

because i -do- want him here, to be closer to me, to be more of himself, so i can see him, hear him, talk to him, enjoy his companionship (more then vague presence companionship), feel safe with him, watch him be whatever he is, and just to know he's here and he's safe and he'll be alright