i can feel myself vaguely taking on nonbinary-masculine feelings when thinking about this. does that mean anything? idk.
i don't want to like, appropriate his essence or claim it as mine or anything. that's one big worry.
though that's probably nonsense, even if it -is- him that i'm mirroring or being influenced by, and not just a separate feeling-mood-shift-thing.
idle note-taking i guess