and like. crap, maybe i'm even wrongly assuming the fact that he's even called Lion or has lionish aspects. maybe he's just A Friend. maybe he was the lion doll but changed over time. i'm fine with that. maybe some of the vague feelings would indicate it. but maybe not!! i don't know!!

and like see, i'm overthinking it again, trying to guess at every possibility based on scraps of experiences and lots of murky downtime. challenging the wrong assumptions, i'm sure.
maybe i should try to just not care? maybe i have to wait indefinitely? maybe there's some kind of focused excercise i can actually do in my state?

i just want my lion!!!!