I feel like I don't belong here, or anywhere...
@Raspberryfloof no pressure to respond, but if you feel like answering,..
which type of belong do you mean? the kind where there's a space for you and your absence would be felt if you weren't there?
@kitsch For an example...
I'm going to be in San Francisco with @KS next month, when GDC (the Game Developers' Conference) is happening, and ... I don't feel like I deserve to be there at all.
I tried making games and could barely get started.
I tried making music (in hopes I could make music for games) and could barely get anything finished.
I feel surrounded by amazing, smart, talented people who can do anything they try, and yet I don't feel like I can do anything like them...
@Raspberryfloof this sounds like a familiar pain </3 it's a bad place to be in.
is it possible to take some comfort in knowing that people (such as KS i assume!) enjoy your presence or are happy to see you, regardless of what you're doing or not doing?
i know it won't fix what's wrong with making things or belonging, and doesn't help the feeling that you're inadequate or replacable (if i've understood you correctly), but it might be something to hold onto in the meantime.
@kitsch I ... guess? The kind where I feel like I have a place that matters, where I have a reason to keep making things, and where I feel people care about what I'm doing...
I really just feel like I don't have any reason to do anything anymore, and nobody would care if I just wasn't here... and I feel.... I don't know if obsoleted is really the word I'm thinking of? but I don't feel useful or needed anymore...