related: i think i have some guilt about abandoning westernized tulpamancy attempts. saying "it never happened. nothing came of it" isn't a good solution for that, even if it seems like part of the answer.
again, i have a tendency to try to leave my problems behind.
but in my current state there's nothing i can do in the area of plurality, regardless of whatever it is i _should_ do or what the reality is or was. i mean, i couldn't do anything back then either.

re: archetypes, character connections, thought-tones and attitudes,

what i said about it being escapism etc. is part of it, but i forgot to focus on the mirroring itself.

i seem prone to fictionflickers and picking up energy from characters or archetypes.
polymorphs have similar traits.

but i know of other possible explanations: i'm impressionable. i've done a lot of identity work. bpd causes wonky identity. it's not unusual for _anyone_ to mirror characters they like.

hm.