i kind of want to be social but i am: 1. not present enough, too foggy 2. maybe too aggressively confident? in my movements? 3. can tell there's irritation in here somewhere seeping through 4. the usual lack of things to talk about with offline people
it's always the simplest solution to just retreat, huh -_-
i wonder if i can even have a real relationship with someone who has power over me, which i feel the flatmates do.
anyway i used to think and am not entirely unconvinced that there's a certain kind of detachment that makes me more confident in how i move or talk, less self-conscious and not trying to take up as little space as possible. it could be a different core cause, idk
the flatmates do not seem social tonight anyway so i guess i can feel better about not bothering to try!