it's always the simplest solution to just retreat, huh -_-
i wonder if i can even have a real relationship with someone who has power over me, which i feel the flatmates do.
the flatmates do not seem social tonight anyway so i guess i can feel better about not bothering to try!
anyway i used to think and am not entirely unconvinced that there's a certain kind of detachment that makes me more confident in how i move or talk, less self-conscious and not trying to take up as little space as possible. it could be a different core cause, idk