specifically, left presence is unlikely to do anything at all -until- i'm reminded of its existence, at which point it usually makes itself a nuisance (presumably 'dont think of pink elephants').
i'm pushing it away all the time, now.
sometimes a presence feels less like it's... purer & free of all that baggage & has something more to it.
which makes me think that i'm doing something wrong.

this isn't what i used to feel or how i used to treat it. when i thought it was a plural thing that i understood, there were still intrusive presences,
but i recall perceiving other presences as specific pleasant company.
but it was still just as foggy.