wonder if Left Presence is somehow a product of self-consciousness.
if i'm not pushing it myself, it doesn't generally do anything besides act out the movement-feeling on me from impulsive or intrusive thoughts, and that's getting easier to ignore.
i mean i'm sure that at least partially it is because of tulpamancy attempts training brain to feel presence even though there's noone there, i just don't know if that's the whole story or the best reason.
sometimes i feel like there's more than once presence and that they feel different.
but it's impossible to tell anything about it, and if i try it imprints my own intentions onto it
presences Afficher plus
specifically, left presence is unlikely to do anything at all -until- i'm reminded of its existence, at which point it usually makes itself a nuisance (presumably 'dont think of pink elephants').
i'm pushing it away all the time, now.
sometimes a presence feels less like it's... purer & free of all that baggage & has something more to it.
which makes me think that i'm doing something wrong.
this isn't what i used to feel or how i used to treat it. when i thought it was a plural thing that i understood, there were still intrusive presences,
but i recall perceiving other presences as specific pleasant company.
but it was still just as foggy.