yeah yeah all this identity introspection is just for show and none of this is important, i know kitsch you've said that before, now will you stuff it.

so, couple things.

i think these feelings could be called "fictionflickers," which are (paraphrased) convincing but brief identity feelings.

and that'd mean that uh, i'm _especially_ prone to fictionflickers. which would already be weird.

furthermore, as Sen friend points out, many of these characters and archetypes and feelings _stick with me_, some moreso than others.

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that aside, i'm amused and somewhat validated to note that, in an archive page on polymorphs, someone was pondering on alternative names for polymorphs, and they were thinking of using "mirror" as a base for that.

which validates my my thoughts about how being 'mirror entity' is probably another name for a 'polymorph'. maybe with different connotations though.
(same with 'mimic tendencies.' in this context, at least.)

[http://www.eristic.net/fey/types/polymorph.php]

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another page on polymorphs (of the few there are) mentions they're "energy-based lifeforms."
i'd assumed physical blobs as a default, but i gotta admit, energy seems nicer.

that puts me back on the train of thought, "what if desire to be a polymorph is because it would be an amazing way to express myself/a very effective internal stim?"

that could explain why the morphing itself is appealing, but not the emotional/identity importance of certain characters and species whatnot.
it also wouldn't explain the absence of a central self, or other minor details probably if i could be bothered to think of them atm.

[http://otherkin.wikia.com/wiki/Polymorph]

though i don't think i mirror the essence or forms of people around me?
(besides fairly typical social chameleon (phrase i learned from i think NeonYeen) stuff, & resonating energy with pals.)

some definitions of polymorph mean that, say, if you hang around dragons enough, you take on a dragon essence & it's added to your library of forms.

i have no desire to mimic the people i know (i think).

i mirror _characters_.

& those reflections aren't just 'forms.'
they almost have life of their own, & are almost me, but aren't settling as either. (sleepily paraphrased from Sen).

but it may still fall under "polymorph".