getting better at not being self-conscious when alone
but not good enough it seems!!
watching cartoons of all things is something i still have a, kind of resistance to even when i want to watch.
might not be related to self-consciousness though that's the nearest known anxiety.
Or sometimes impulsive frequent pressing of the "skip 10 seconds ahead" key, which has a similar effect.
I know it'll just take some practice to ignore that resistance, though I wish I understood what the internal conflict is.