getting better at not being self-conscious when alone
watching cartoons of all things is something i still have a, kind of resistance to even when i want to watch.
might not be related to self-consciousness though that's the nearest known anxiety.
@fae I watch steven universe and am trying to catch up on friendship is magic today since I used to watch that
Like I can watch, but I end up doing a lot of, switching to different windows/tabs while it's playing, so I don't 'have to' see what I'm watching all the time even though I know I won't enjoy it unless I pay attention.
Or sometimes impulsive frequent pressing of the "skip 10 seconds ahead" key, which has a similar effect.
I know it'll just take some practice to ignore that resistance, though I wish I understood what the internal conflict is.
but not good enough it seems!!