-im dreading looking like the biggest ass tomorrow
-just utter degradation admitting to everyone I left our equipment on the subway
-imagining my reputation never recovering, or even losing my job
-actually that's kind of extreme
-maybe it's a self-fulfilling prophecy to be so pessimistic
-probably just gonna have major anxiety about it until 2 minutes before I walk in when something will come over me and a voice in my head will just say "fake it, act like your fine and you might be fine"