that feel when you do something which sort of puts you out there and then you wonder whether that was a wise plan or not
@patience I think you've just described about 95% of my spirit work
@patience eee, well, difficult to say...like, I think it's paid off? far more gained than lost? but I've had some hairy nights.
@kel i can imagine so. i've been so risk-averse for so long that going out on a limb of late is really not easy for me. it's outside of my comfort zone
@patience I suppose that's one reason I've been pushing myself (and @kara_dreamer now) to incorporate more chance into ritual workings &c. there has to be _some_ risk of a less desired outcome
@kel @kara_dreamer if it's working reasonably well, and you're there to support one another, then keep going with it
i have a lot of fresh scars to tend to and the skin hasn't toughened quite enough yet to try risk-taking in earnest again. plus, i'd functionally be taking on a lot of that risk without the kind of peer encouragement i'd need
@patience @kel *nods* yeah, I know what you mean. Kel here's still very adventurous but their risk-taking can end up being a bit rough on _me_, since I'm the one that's actually carrying Kel's stuff out. Kel's been pushing hard, and I have been rewarded, but now I'm feeling everything far, far more keenly than I did two weeks ago. I'm still rather raw, and I need to be a lot more careful.
@kel how does that tack work out for you for the most part?