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@Auxeras hope that the search for determination is going well! I've had my own struggles in that regard
I believe the occurence of Dissociative Identity Disorder, and other Dissociations of Ego States occur much more often in the general population than psychiatry thinks, like whether traumogenic, thought form creation, or low dissociation of separate ego states that occur in healthy people... Like appart from low dissociation of sep ego in healthy the second most common dissociation of conscious streams of ego states are DID, and some people with Borderline, but a lot of people practicing magick end up with a level of dissociation comparable to the levels in traumogenic disorders, though thought forms such as servitors, and Tulpas, but possibly even spirit influence. Though they tend to have less disordered multiplicity or median systems that those with tcaumogenic systems but there is even overlap there as my system is traumogenic mostly though there is some headmates that are here because of witchcraft and meditation.
@Auxeras hello again!
@ErgiWitch I feel like it's possible to build up an equivalent "bond" with a tarot deck just by working with it enough, but yeah, there's always going to be more power in a deck that's been passed on. there's a special magic in that.
@ErgiWitch a wise approach! like...don't ever forget that Wicca isn't really all that old. there's a difference between worshipping ancient deities, and actually having an ancient tradition. and why should we stick so closely to tradition anyway? so if anyone gives you shit about not being "authentic" or something, just tell 'em you haven't time for old stuff that doesn't work for you. if you ever feel like you're _forcing_ yourself to regard some spiritual practice as meaningful when it doesn't actually sit well with you, throw it away because otherwise you're not gonna get anything out of it
The unicorn dream in Blade Runner is incredibly important because it symbolises that Deckard is, in fact, a brony
@ErgiWitch *nods* well, anyway, I _am_ prepared to get you a deck of tarot cards, anyway, if I can figure out how to get Amazon to do it for me. I figure everyone should at least have a deck of tarot cards.
@ErgiWitch I know what you mean. I've been going in for a highly idiosyncratic practice as a result, avoiding the neo-pagan mainstream. Wicca's got its charms but it's really gender binaristic and (for me anyway) too rigid in its symbolism. I've been working out on my own what symbols mean the most to me. "Chaos magic" is a term that's been used for that sort of highly individualized approach
@ErgiWitch blech, how do I actually send stuff as a gift? I've never actually done this before, and I'm afraid of accidentally sending something to myself. I thought the whole point of Amazon was to make this stuff easy. maybe I should just paypal you twenty bucks XD
@KaylinEvergreen I know it *hugs*
@ErgiWitch dunno! I just feel like it. I'm trying to get into witchy stuff myself, so I'm sympathetic to the cause of nudging you in that direction...
@ErgiWitch no, it's fine! I was trying to work out some less direct way in my head to get you something on the list. tempted to get you the NERV emblem but that's not exactly witchy...
@listelian yeah. I think it took me a while to grasp that it _was_ traumatic. does that make any sense? I used to think, "eh, it's just that my spending priorities changed", or something bland like that
@ErgiWitch could I have a link?
Streaming the 90s Are you Afraid of the Dark PC game withj some friends for a bit. Feel free to stop by and enjoy the multimedia spookiness https://www.twitch.tv/srolhogan/
@Stoori yeah :( I compensated a little by going in for electronic books but it's just not the same
it's difficult for me to explain just how dispiriting selling off most of my book collection back in 2011-12 was to me, because we had moved to a very tiny and expensive apartment just to be able to stay in Ballard for Daria's job. like, I've been _afraid_ to buy books ever since, and would only buy the occasional book if I could get it for basically no money, like a lucky thrift-shop find
@Ulfra_Wolfe @kel I might just buy the volume. now that I've a little more money to spare every couple of weeks, I've been starting to buy books again. got one on Egyptian deities on Kaylin's recommendation, got a book of Anansi stories, a couple other things are arriving eventually...