@ErgiWitch I know what you mean. I've been going in for a highly idiosyncratic practice as a result, avoiding the neo-pagan mainstream. Wicca's got its charms but it's really gender binaristic and (for me anyway) too rigid in its symbolism. I've been working out on my own what symbols mean the most to me. "Chaos magic" is a term that's been used for that sort of highly individualized approach