A lot of bad thoughts have been gnawing at me lately...like, the fact that my workplace is kind of an amateur-hour shitshow, on close examination, and it's making my new job there more unpleasant than it'd be in a factory that were better designed and better managed. Also I'm really kinda resenting have to sink back into my deadname persona. It's all cis straight guys, so far as I can tell, and I'm having to fucking _pretend_ again. Cutting my hair short, keeping my mouth shut about a lot of things, answering to a name I've really come to dislike...it kinda fucking sucks