wish my GF were here, or Kaylin (who's sort of becoming my 2nd partner but in a somewhat cautious, restrained way), or anyone I could be affectionate with. that's not very many people these days, but now I am accusing myself of being greedy. I've got a loving partner who's been with me for twelve years, I've got a tentative second relationship forming...why am I still unsatisfied?
I suppose I put too much of myself into my relationship with Kawa. When shi ripped hirself away, it took too much of me with hir because I'd shared myself too eagerly...
Daria is my mate and I adore her but she's not a kindred spirit...I thought Kawa was, though. I believed in magick again because of hir...
Kaylin's into magick but she's too much like me. guarded, analytical, always thinking, always doubting.
loneliness Afficher plus
I suppose I put too much of myself into my relationship with Kawa. When shi ripped hirself away, it took too much of me with hir because I'd shared myself too eagerly...
Daria is my mate and I adore her but she's not a kindred spirit...I thought Kawa was, though. I believed in magick again because of hir...
Kaylin's into magick but she's too much like me. guarded, analytical, always thinking, always doubting.
bleh