I am overflowing with ideas but none of the materials appease me. I don't like handwriting. I can't use MS Word because what if I want to write at work and forget my flash drive again? Evernote makes me panic. Google Docs is too loud. Draft makes me afraid someone will steal my stuff. Wordpress makes me afraid I'll slip up and publish.

my issues are 100% internal projecting as external and I don't know why or how to fix it.

@guerrillarain try Focuswriter? https://gottcode.org/focuswriter/