@kara_dreamer I wish I had constructive input for this. I never had a crossdresser phase in my life. I figured out I was trans from processing my thoughts and feelings. That I felt nothing usually, but a profound sadness when myself in a suit, that I made castration jokes for reasons nobody understood, and that longing I felt when I'd stumble across a HRT timeline.

So it was hard to develop my aesthetic. The first times I dressed as a woman, it felt really uncomfortable and weird, because I felt like it amplified everything that was wrong, and connected me to a body that itself didn't fit. All I can say is, experiment and be strong.