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not even sure what overall appearance I'm aiming at...just, "different", really, for now
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@ikea_femme yeah, that's kinda the same with me, only I've spent longer at trying to convince myself I wasn't worth the effort of trying to look good. I've tried to fade into the background for so long...I don't know *how* to look any other way.
@kara_dreamer Yeah, that's what sucks. The way I explain it to the cis is, when you look in the mirror on a bad day, you feel ugly. When I look in the mirror on a bad day, my brain pretends I'm not real.
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@kara_dreamer I wish I had constructive input for this. I never had a crossdresser phase in my life. I figured out I was trans from processing my thoughts and feelings. That I felt nothing usually, but a profound sadness when myself in a suit, that I made castration jokes for reasons nobody understood, and that longing I felt when I'd stumble across a HRT timeline.
So it was hard to develop my aesthetic. The first times I dressed as a woman, it felt really uncomfortable and weird, because I felt like it amplified everything that was wrong, and connected me to a body that itself didn't fit. All I can say is, experiment and be strong.