Almost all the dominoes were in place now...I don't remember exactly what stimulus finally tipped them all over, what exactly the train of thought leading to the grand epiphany, but it was quite fittingly something triggered by my replaying #Undertale back in May. Under cover of merely trying to get into the head of Chara Dreemurr and think like them because I wanted to portray them effectively in prose, I was smuggling uncertainty and questioning of my own gender identity into my consciousness. I began to give Chara some of my own dreams. I remembered as a child wanting to knit like my mom did, so my Chara began to knit.