I've mentioned earlier in this narrative that I'd come during this time to regard myself as a duality. There was the dragon, Kel, and the horse, Mono. Notice who's missing from this?

Me. The human. I had these furry / dragon personalities but the human aspect of me seemed to disappear from the picture. I tried to include them. For a while I would refer to my human side as "Gabriel", using my saint's name from when I underwent adult conversion to Catholicism many years ago. But "Gabriel" kept disappearing. Kel and Mono were active and lively, but "Gabriel" was a cypher.

Without quite knowing it, this was bothering me.