Just had a strange thought as to whether I might be lying to everyone, including myself. If I'm just writing myself into what I need to be, and that means I'm hiding who I truly am? Am I giving up my core ideals and supplanting them with what's useful to me?

It doesn't feel that way, but when I think about it too much, it leads to overall thoughts about how I'm never sure I truly believe what I think I am, that I'm an amalgamation of cells with a fake identity to begin with, that I only have one lifetime's worth of memories and those memories are unreliable at best.

@Ulfra_Wolfe are you suggesting "fake it until you make it" is a credo you're following?

I recently felt that way to become the witch and person I wanted to be, but it's not the full story. Joining this Mastodon is the first and biggest step I've taken in socializing myself as a witch instead of merely in my Practice. Recognizing what you need to begin embodying Your Self is a step in becoming it, but only reveals itself as you hone the art of Your Self.

One more thing. I think I read from Queer Theory, is an epiphany I realized a bit ago; that Your Self is an emergent identity, blossoming from circumstance.