junho @junho@witches.town

o.o eeek, all the alerts i got just scared me D:

Another thing, if and when mastodon becomes big how will the public list work? I mean, it seems to load up as new messages come in, I'd imagine things would start to overload and be nearly unusable? Say, because too many images + texts are loading at once leading to higher ram usage and the fact that it be unreadable with how quick things would load? Then again, I probably misunderstand how the public time line works.

Curious about something, so you can search for tags, is there ever going to be an implementation for 'global tags.' That you can say search for in the global federation list?

Another thing, some games like stellaris make me remember when she said we should play that sometime. That is something that is never going to happen now. :[

also, excuse the fragmentation of my posts, I'm still new to mastodon so I kept forgetting to reply to each one.

I also find it really weird that when I get on skype, I see her online still. .-.

The last thing they messaged me on signal when trying to get their attention and asking them what they're up to was, "depression gaming," too. :(

the last bit being teasingly of course

Even while learning Japanese, I recall a few moments I've talked to them about learning the language. Mind you they're not the only person. And it feels a bit saddening and I wonder if they'd feel happy to hear I am making some progress in this regard now. Though, they also probably wouldn't care too much and would just call me a, "bakaweeaboo" like she and mel would. :v

and it also feels strange because it's like, I haven't talked to them for most of the year because I'v e been too sucked into games or anxiety about my future. And I figured they could always be there but they aren't now. Life is weird and I wish we could've interacted more.

At the same time, I kind of came back on here after not using it for a while because I heard this where everyone was grieving but I Didn't feel like I could add much. I did do everything in my power the first few days to help. But I am quite limited being poor and living on the other side of the country so idk. At the same time thinking about how society hurts trans women and how I am a cishet person I can't fully comprehend the pain the community she is in experiences. It's all weird. THough,this last part feels too me, rather than tT focused. I don't know what I am looking for in these posts. Just a place to put down my thoughts?