jennifer katherine @jenkshields@witches.town

Every year I'm like "that's it no more terfs I'm ignoring them" and every year they get closer and closer to my social circle and irl life and tbh it's soooo scary. We're at the butt end of nowhere why are there terfs

Ughhhhh a few ppl on nz twitter are stirring shit and it's fucking with me. One of them was a colleague at uni and tbf she was horrid for ages but it felt like we had connected and she was getting better when I left but now she's full terf, referencing zucker and shit

Like jeez subconscious chill out

My nightmares super commonly have this like, internal imperative of "THIS PERSON IS IMPORTANT" which makes them all the more stressful which thinking about it I guess actually makes sense

It continued after I woke up for a bit & I was just in akl cbd looking around for them and they'd turn up behind me... Strange

Had a v intense dream involving an axe murderer and one of my old Auckland suburbs but I kept getting saved by this cyberpunk babe that was so vivid it must be someone I know

Oh god I just realised I'm gonna age out of my youth health clinic this year. My gp is great in that she doesn't care that I'm not in endo... A new one might make me go get a new psych assessment...

I guess at the same time I've maybe spent $40-60 in the last few weeks on... Four? Five books? Which is pretty dang good

I didn't think I was that quick a reader now days but wow uh I might actually struggle to afford to have an ebook on the go all year

The work emails have started coming in & I'm still off til next week but they're stressing me out... I should turn off notifs

#2018readingchallenge 1/12!

Ajsnfjdhs it's getting so gay hell yes

Ohhhh I'm reading ancillary justice and just got to the bit where the plot timelines meet and ohhhh it's good

I started doing resolution stuff mid last week and wow it's actually working I haven't given up on Jan 1st. I mean it's just daily taking meds, brushing teeth, & facial skincare but still

Considering last new years day I was out of it until like 1pm when I woke up hungover as hell and somehow still drunk this pretty good actually. I'm awake and eating and drinking water and it's okay

Oh that was quite an intense end to the night oh dear

Oh good nye turned out as stressful as I worried it would be

Idk im glad I'm not in the rs I was last nye but it's hard not to feel like I haven't moved. & as anti ig monogamy & srs long term formal relationships as I think I am it feels like a real failure. It's hard not to feel like this all there is

Oh yay this is precisely what I didn't want to think about tonight time to medicate the fuck up knock myself the fuck out

Idk intimacy is both so important and so difficult at the same time. I've been out four years this year and the lack of like. Intimate and comfortable relationships in that time is hard to ignore