jennifer katherine @jenkshields@witches.town

I'm gonna try read at least one book a month next year & I think i'm gonna pick up a decent kindle

I'm diving head on into fiction and reading cos I haven't since before uni so pls hmu with ur fave queer fiction things pls!

Oh wow had a v intense important conversation that I only just realised was a dream

Oh wow surprise it's my four year hormoneiverssary

Ohhh i did it tho https://witches.town/media/vToxypxU5Qj9uOKKADA

Ew i was having a lovely time but then drunk apw turned up and got very intensely aggressive with me

Soon we get to drink and celebrate and relax and then when the guests have gone we get to get high

Everyone is stressed as hell and teams that have worked amazing all week are getting quite strained but at least I look gorgeous #cutewitches https://witches.town/media/zX1DuZlZdi2FtWLCER4

I think it holds up?

Stone femme queen https://witches.town/media/ghUoDexlebkDMYTOAaE

Oh it does also throw up problems with other trans feminine ppl too & that's defs sth I've noticed in my self & have been working on

Again this might be total bullshit and bad but I think it's accurate and probably not harmful? It feels like a relief bc I've had trouble articulating it so I hope it holds up when sober

And I guess this is performative? Not in my self but in the way other ppl act that influences my attraction. Which can be problematic when it comes to trans masc ppl I think bc someone can be as binary masc as hell in their identity but that might not come through in my attraction?

And my sexuality/romantic orientation is generally attraction to women & nb ppl but an aversion to masculinity. Like a degree of masculinity is tolerable (toxic far less so) but at a certain point/degree it becomes unattractive or even intolerable

Like my gender, in all its iterations and fluctuations, is always "not masculine"

Ohhh I'm tipsy and high so this might be bullshit but I wanna get it down: a significant portion of my queer identity is in opposition to masculinity

This fucking white dude who is meant to work for us 6 days a month but hasn't done shit got called "the glue that holds this place together" and just turned up out of the blue today and is being condescending as fuck

I am so fucking exhausted and I swear to fucking god if I have to spend another minute being talked down to like I haven't been doing this job for a year and don't know my shit I'm going to fucking snap