jennifer katherine @jenkshields@witches.town

Again this might be total bullshit and bad but I think it's accurate and probably not harmful? It feels like a relief bc I've had trouble articulating it so I hope it holds up when sober

And I guess this is performative? Not in my self but in the way other ppl act that influences my attraction. Which can be problematic when it comes to trans masc ppl I think bc someone can be as binary masc as hell in their identity but that might not come through in my attraction?

And my sexuality/romantic orientation is generally attraction to women & nb ppl but an aversion to masculinity. Like a degree of masculinity is tolerable (toxic far less so) but at a certain point/degree it becomes unattractive or even intolerable

Like my gender, in all its iterations and fluctuations, is always "not masculine"

Ohhh I'm tipsy and high so this might be bullshit but I wanna get it down: a significant portion of my queer identity is in opposition to masculinity

This fucking white dude who is meant to work for us 6 days a month but hasn't done shit got called "the glue that holds this place together" and just turned up out of the blue today and is being condescending as fuck

I am so fucking exhausted and I swear to fucking god if I have to spend another minute being talked down to like I haven't been doing this job for a year and don't know my shit I'm going to fucking snap

Someone emailing me: Jen can you do this
Coworker, replying to that email: Jen can you do this

One of my coworkers has been real condescending lately and it is getting on my nerves

Someone implied I wasn't "a local" and it's really getting to me bc i'm rly rly strongly tied to this motu

Oh christ I'm cramping and everyone is getting on my nerves and I cannot wait to work alone next week

This is what our gallery looks like atm and I'm rly excited for the board to struggle to see speeches and race around after food through all this https://witches.town/media/GVrgxprcp8KMoDDlda8

We had a board member walking through our install (literally a construction write) with some random yesterday and it's a health and safety nightmare and just typical of the whole board's attitude and fuck I'm so done with this place

I make maybe just under double that in a year & we've got a 60 odd year waitlist & I don't have confidence the new government will fix that and ohhhhhhhh no

Oh dear someone mentioned bottom surgery cost on birdsite and just seeing that number is. Dysphoria Trauma™️

Gets your heart rate up, good for cardio and blood flow, relaxing,

Masturbation as treatment for fibromyalgia

Rawr https://witches.town/media/Gy2OtYeIKLxrKfPk1Xw

He put his head there https://witches.town/media/Q-OQgBtJ3_0p-swEJXk

https://witches.town/media/Jrq27wGGunSyON989d8