jennifer katherine @jenkshields@witches.town

Oh god I totally forgot about the music deadline and panicked but it's okay I did some quick hunting and got a few submissions so I have my 6 or 7: 3 women (incl one trans woman), 1-2 queer ppl, 4 nz artists (incl one Ōtautahi artist), 1 Ngāi Tahu 😊

Me: it'll be fine I can manage this
Chair of the board: you don't need to communicate with the artist. The primary contact is the interim curator who messed shit up and doesn't work here any more.

Hey does anyone have experience with changing a gender marker on a UK birth certificate? Bonus if you, like me, don't actually live there/never have. Boosts appreciated!

Goddamn last night it felt simple but now in the office it's super overwhelming again

I didn't start these things with that intent but I feel like there's a straight line between those things and turning down the advisory group thing today

Using habitca for brushing my teeth and pain management but also for skincare and starting to read again. They're small things but they're a beginning it feels like

I didn't really think about it but I think the series of little changes and little things I started doing around the xmas/nye period have led to like. Idk how to describe it, it's faint enough in my mind, but like, betterment?

I think probably an explicit purpose of damage mitigation alongside the pre-existing advocating for the less privileged and represented is going to. Maybe make this easier

Some of this is kinda in opposition to staying at work I guess but. Work is a compromise where I've taken these things into account

Someone I follow on birdsite has been talking about a new year thing about being themselves and keeping cared ones close and calling themselves out along with toxicity in their circles and I've been admiring and thinking and I think it's influenced a lot today

I mean it's why I've been holding off on new work projects until we found out: I don't trust the board or who they'd put in place to maintain those relationships and keep those people and communities safe

I think it's also partly an obligation to what we did last year, especially what we did despite board interference. The exhibition with the mana whenua collective went really well and our (staff) relationships with them are really strong. For one

I think i'm gonna do it. I've been thinking about who I wanna be and part of that is acting in good faith, as naive as it may be here. But I also think the thing that'll be best for my health long term is to pay off debt and try save, and reassess and look at other opportunities along the way

I feel a lot better than I did this morning. Friend I work with had a decompress and talked about options, I vented to auds, had a relaxing evening - but a big part of that was also the response and validation here, so thank you 💕

Oh god I can't even describe the feeling of other people going "yeah that's shit probably don't trust them to stop" like goddamn. Professional context gaslighting is hell

@zeborah thank you! I know the libraries are about to list for an exhibitions manager that is basically exactly what I do + part time + explicitly working with treaty obligations so I'm hoping that one works out

@zeborah yeah, I guess that stress/benefit balance is what I'm trying to figure out, alongside probability of continued board bullshit. Think i'm gonna apply for a few current opportunities but otherwise plan to stick around?

Thank you for responses, it means a lot 💕 I'm blobbed on couch high with whiskey and ubereats is coming

@laura_fizzpop yeah, this is where I'm at - I'm almost certain they'll keep causing trouble but also I guess 18 months to find other options isn't bad as long as the work itself is like... Better than it has been