Ohhh I'm tipsy and high so this might be bullshit but I wanna get it down: a significant portion of my queer identity is in opposition to masculinity

Like my gender, in all its iterations and fluctuations, is always "not masculine"

And my sexuality/romantic orientation is generally attraction to women & nb ppl but an aversion to masculinity. Like a degree of masculinity is tolerable (toxic far less so) but at a certain point/degree it becomes unattractive or even intolerable