And I guess this is performative? Not in my self but in the way other ppl act that influences my attraction. Which can be problematic when it comes to trans masc ppl I think bc someone can be as binary masc as hell in their identity but that might not come through in my attraction?

Again this might be total bullshit and bad but I think it's accurate and probably not harmful? It feels like a relief bc I've had trouble articulating it so I hope it holds up when sober

I think it holds up?

Oh it does also throw up problems with other trans feminine ppl too & that's defs sth I've noticed in my self & have been working on