Marie 🔮💖 @jamuraa@witches.town

A huge part of me wishes I was brought up to believe that being queer was not a curse, and that I had tried it out more when I was young.

In a strange turn of events, I was testing some things wrong earlier today and then a magic switch flipped and stuff started working.

I got into the happy place where I get to make code a lot better and actually accomplish my goals at the same time. I'm really happy that things are getting better quickly.

When I get to be the person making things better for a lot of people at once that is what makes me the happiest. I'm going to double-down on making stuff better tomorrow.

Didn't have an outfit to really post from Sunday so here's the casual half of Saturday. #ootd #nomakeup Skirt on sale from ASOS was making me feel very flowy.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTRTx-BFc6k/ https://witches.town/media/j9RjjKeRwN1rQ0vAptM

This shirt is okay I guess. It'll probably be a winner with a bra. #selfie https://witches.town/media/Kr2nJA4okZeqMRWP77A

Just dropped about $4400 on plane tickets so I guess we're visiting Amsterdam over Independence Day this year. That's about as independent as I can get I guess. :)

Got all slinky dress for the rainbow railroad gala last night. #girlslikeus #ootd strangely geek like this dress de-emphasised my boobs.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTO1-B5FbU0/ https://witches.town/media/eLYpKitbNbdZ6ae3YBE

Wow, I am such a derpfacing in the full-body shot of this. Here's a bonus shot for the witches town too which is less blep. https://witches.town/media/m112poHNcugKUxx4TiY

#casualfriday collides with the Makeup challenge. #ootd I was prepared yesterday to replace my passport and lose a day. I wasn't prepared for the passport office to lose power. No passport for me, no trip next week. 😞😞😞 Picked up some replacement makeup this is #rimmel Moisture Renew in Rose Blush.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTMQKyVFEk3/ https://witches.town/media/3VuetymXqmPrjYijmNM

New album from @SherylCrow for today that's interestingly apt. #somedays #nowplaying https://play.google.com/music/m/Bqgzw56rpf35lohijsglmplntbi?t=Be_Myself_-_Sheryl_Crow

Bonus second outfit yesterday for going to a show. #ootd First time for this dress which I actually really love, and breaking in these heels, trying to get used to them.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTJuHVEFbBL/ https://witches.town/media/a-mmQ-WdQQ2TCIVzn9E

I never really had to learn to walk in heels. I honestly got into my first pair and just walked down the hall. These are taller than most other ones that I wear but I still have no problem walking in them. it's one of those things that makes me feel really good. #extended

Trending a little more casual yesterday during the day. #ootd This lipstick has a top coat but feels weird on my lips after it dries. I lost it before today so I don't know the color!
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTJs1RrFNzc https://witches.town/media/xUX7pDy3Opwhc49zl-0

Geometric dress print and gold accessories #ootd Makeup week day 3 with just lipstick and mascara. Cherry Frost from Wet n Wild.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTHJndalXTy/ https://witches.town/media/YKHVeKuJosH7gc0Xu9k

Whenever I ask about foundation, I get told that I don't really need it. I still think that I need it for some spotchyness and to cover up the remaining blue from my beard, so it's not many days that I do makeup and don't at least put a powder on. #extended

Ahhh the witches.town has gone French and I kinda love it. 🔮 😍 💖

New great leggings with a favorite dress. #ootd #lotusleggings Makeup week day 2. This lipstick stays on amazingly! It stayed on through coffee and two meals.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTEbo1JFRac/ https://witches.town/media/Y_lEBk6R97Sw4QIXybk

I feel like I got a lot done today so far, and it seems like I have a lot of it left still. I still also feel like I'm racing to some sort of finish. In an hour or so I'll be forced to take a little break though, and maybe then also go chill a bit.

I really thought today might be a wash but I've been pretty damn productive working remotely. This makes me feel pretty good about heading out of the country for a week.

Thought it was going to be less rainy for these shoes but it turned out okay. #ootd Making this week a makeup challenge. Goal is to wear makeup every weekday.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BTCWqovl5P0 https://witches.town/media/-au60tUnYuYgIrcSg9M

Sometimes I get a song aesthetic into my head. Pearl Jam time. #nowplaying #justtosleep https://play.google.com/music/m/Tdhrjouku32htj3qccjqw5sdkzm?t=Better_Man_Remastered_-_Pearl_Jam

This was a bizarre trans-feels song for me, I wanted so much to be that girl who could be looked over. Talk about feelings I didn't understand at all. #extended

A drive through a rainy northern California and a day of unwinding. #ootd #nomakeup An important day to rest before an anticipated very busy week.
https://www.instagram.com/p/BS_Q5znF20v/ https://witches.town/media/Z7MxFWqvjui9-vH0ygo

So I'm jealous of girls that got to grow their boobs from scratch while they already knew they were a girl, because I never got that and harbor a bunch of BS stuff about them kinda like you can see the "boy" in the mirror it's hard for me to get past my "manboobs" sometimes.

I also rarely get growing pains either that I can notice so they just kind of slowly balloon up and I have to work to notice.

Also going from a big B to a DD doesn't seem like that much, like I can still fit in my first bras and never went to a store abd was surprised to find I grew a cup size.

I'm right now thinking of adding hormones to see if they'll grow more.

I might have some jealousy thoughts about this too.

When I went through first puberty I grew my boobs for the first time and then it was kind of bullshit to be in the boys locker room, growing boobs and wishing I could wear bras and dealing with all that bullshit and not even knowing what to do. But it happened and I started HRT with like a decent size B cup from those and being fat earlier in my life.

I know they grew because well now I'm wearing DD bras and not falling out of them but I didn't get the "omg omg I have boobs now!" feelings and I feel kinda like I missed out on a trans girl rite of passage or something.