Marie 🔮💖 @jamuraa@witches.town

Nine days until we get the keys to our new house. I think that it's time to start packing.

Good trans woman feels: The person I'm on hold with comes back and says "Ma'am, we're just waiting for our machine to reboot" when the only word I've said to him was "Sure" when he answered and asked if I could hold.

Okay, I think my voice might be in the right place.

I'm like the whitest girl in the world. #selfie https://witches.town/media/WLFv_c9RhEWLbQlhwPs

I did some realizing that I'm a lot more curvy than a lot of women, in the hourglass way. People watching is good for my psyche sometimes.

At some point I might be able to accept myself in skintight things more. Getting used to being a lot more comfortable showing off my body.

me: argggggggggg I need to grow my chest hair out for electrolysis and it's horrible people will notice

also me: wears a sparkly tank top with an unlined bra and a pendant

Today's #tarot reading. https://witches.town/media/MEduhDzeJPWi3CIbHKk

I like the Knight of Pentacles, especially in this deck, because I saw a movie where people fly around and fight yesterday that was really enjoyable.

Queen of Cups reversed is an interesting take on the present slot.

King of Swords focuses on analysis and communication, which bodes well for this weekend's work.

Pretty happy with yesterday. #ootd #nomakeup I was heads-down for most of the day. Long night afterwards with movie and dinner with a girl I hadn't seen in too long.
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Today's #tarot reading. https://witches.town/media/vn3AK99gnjllU-53_Uk

Seven of Swords reversed reveals my insecurity about making my transgender status a talking point yesterday and feeling the impact of that.

The psychic and emotionality of the Queen of Cups is being held back inverted in the present card.

Two of Pentacles in the future is looking forward to this weekend, where I'll be learning and playing with some new things that I've been holding back on for a while.

Struck by the difference in these two angles. #ootd Been a long time since this, it was one of my first dresses but I might have to get rid of it. Lipstick is Red Door Red by Elizabeth Arden.
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me: I want my breasts to grow at least a cup size bigger to look right on my frame

also me: I can barely find the right size bra because my boobs are too big

Yesterday's #tarot reading. Another one with The High Priestess. sensing a theme.

Sometimes I need to remind myself that I actually look ok. #selfie https://imgur.com/prjMVxA.jpg

I've not been feeling so hot lately. Body image issues, self-image issues, self-worth issues. Worry about health care, social acceptance. I just seem to have anxiety about everything and I need to develop some coping mechanisms that don't make me feel worse.

Working from home yesterday meant I could just throw on whatever. #ootd #nomakeup It was so busy but a great day. Hoping the rest of the week can be relaxed and good. New earrings.
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Today's #tarot reading. Third day in a row that the High Priestess showed up. Today inverted in the "before" slot.

Followup: Guy just called us back and we've got the place! Going to sign the lease in an hour!

We went and looked at a house to rent on Saturday and were super excited about it. It's a lot bigger than what we have now and would be really great for us, way more convenient to get places and really walkable.

The rental person keeps emailing back for more info, which I think is a good sign.

Had my "almost 9 months" post-op today, everything looks great, but they used some nitrate on the bottom of my clit, and while I'm super happy that it's definitely super sensitive down there it's also burning and hurting and ow ow ow.

I'm basically on my own for figuring out things now, although I can call back in a couple months if things are not working out.

Said I can start on the orange dilator if I want at 9 months, which is in just a couple weeks, and also stop some of the other things that he was making me do. I've been feeling better about it lately.

Happy things: "Yep, looks nice and pink just like a vagina"

tfw you're sometimes bigger than your 36DD bra. 🙂

Today's #tarot reading.
Second day in a row for High Priestess in the active card position. https://witches.town/media/2SddNl-k69QHbefKMTU