HRT and boobs Afficher plus
So this particular mindworm started when someone started talking about their boobs growing more and more, and it brought up all of my feelings about that again.
According to external validation I have some pretty great boobs, but I have the weird trans thing on me where I think they're just inadequate and look weird a lot of the time. I also inexplicably want them to be larger even though they're like at the thin end of the "able to buy from any random store" size now.
I want them to be formidably undeniably great and kind of in everyone's face because I have this thought that having undeniable boobs force people to acknowledge womanhood.
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
I might have some jealousy thoughts about this too.
When I went through first puberty I grew my boobs for the first time and then it was kind of bullshit to be in the boys locker room, growing boobs and wishing I could wear bras and dealing with all that bullshit and not even knowing what to do. But it happened and I started HRT with like a decent size B cup from those and being fat earlier in my life.
I know they grew because well now I'm wearing DD bras and not falling out of them but I didn't get the "omg omg I have boobs now!" feelings and I feel kinda like I missed out on a trans girl rite of passage or something.
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
So I'm jealous of girls that got to grow their boobs from scratch while they already knew they were a girl, because I never got that and harbor a bunch of BS stuff about them kinda like you can see the "boy" in the mirror it's hard for me to get past my "manboobs" sometimes.
I also rarely get growing pains either that I can notice so they just kind of slowly balloon up and I have to work to notice.
Also going from a big B to a DD doesn't seem like that much, like I can still fit in my first bras and never went to a store abd was surprised to find I grew a cup size.
I'm right now thinking of adding hormones to see if they'll grow more.
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
@jamuraa definitely try injections or implants (expensive pellets) if you haven't yet. ime the anecdotal about injections having higher general efficacy are pretty true
there can be a rollercoaster effect from your blood levels varying over the injection cycle (up to 2 weeks typically) but i didn't notice that myself
what i did notice was the painful, long-lingering bruises i got on my thighs. took like 6 months after ceasing injections to finally stop being sore
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
@alyx I've been on injections from day 1 of HRT (got an interesting lucky doctor that way). A strong dose too that I've cut in half now.
Mostly I also feel like I'm not likely to get a lot more (two years is starting to get diminishing returns) and it will just make it harder to buy bras and stuff.
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
@alyx I appreciate the attempts to help, but I'm mostly venting out about the feels that come up pretty much any time another girl is like "omg boobs".
Like I said, by most external measures and feedback I'm getting, I'm doing good in that department and honestly should probably work on the jealousy issues more than try to grow more.
(Also I already have some strategies in my pocket to try if I need to, like maybe starting progesterone)
HRT and boobs Afficher plus
@jamuraa i see. in that case mix things up. easiest is to change type, that tends to bring my tenderness back.patches seems like a good suggestion if you're comin' from injections imo.
fwiw i'm at my biggest after 10+ years. gaining weight helped. i've had soreness, tho not quick growth, over maybe 90% of that span. maybe that's a weird experience.