I'm so tired of never getting any passing indications and getting low-level attention from fucking everyone. I know my hair is blue. I know I look weird for a girl and am fucking giant.

I'm tired of trying to get other people to say that I'm cute because I can never see it. It feels pathetic and shitty, and I hate feeling like I stand out _every_ _god_ _damn_ _place_.

I'm tired of getting all the misogyny and all the transmisogyny and thinking that it's all my fault and I have fucked up my life by just being who I am.

It feels like all the positive genderfeels come from within or trans community and all I get from cis people is GARBAGE.