Putting this out there, I think I mostly win. This exercise helped me tonight. https://witches.town/media/L5vGHE9qj6IbFIiY14o https://witches.town/media/TnmiUCVTiGY814YqtN4 https://witches.town/media/mvsLw4sxa_z-a9k9Kqg https://witches.town/media/Jf5e0DoQEVBAFyyS4IA
These 7 years in summary:
2010 -> 2014: "Try diet and exercise to be okay w/my body"
2014 -> 2017: "That didn't work because I'm a girl"
Don't get me wrong I'm still not okay with my body, but i'm way farther along that path and there's not like a huge invisible wall there now.
It seems unfathomable even two years ago when I started that I would ever feel like I could have the body I wanted.
Even at 37, which might be too late, I feel like I own this and can use my body (diet & exercise) to get where I want to be.