Okay well I'm officially curious about both what some surgeon would think I need to get fixed from my T puberty and what they think I would look like afterwards.

Fuck.

Some huge part of me wants them to be like my voice therapist, who I had one appointment with and she sent me away and said I was totally fine already.

I think I might need to make a promise to myself.

@jamuraa Best of luck. Somebody on a trans form said their surgeon said 90% of people who want FFS don't really need it. I still can't tell if I'm comfortable with my face, even if I look cute in some photos with the right hair and glasses and smile. Just knowing I'm hiding stuff and seeing it in the mirror when I wake up bothers me sometimes. And I have no idea if I could endure the recovery period. And at the core of it, I feel I can't trust anyone or myself on this, as I fixate and other people change their answers for my feelings. If they want to hurt me, I'm manly, if they want me to be happy, they say I'm feminine. ugh.