✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town
I'm a #trans woman in spitting distance of NYC ⚧
I like to shoot #photographs on #film
And I have another account on @ikea_femme & #metafilter
#exodus #introduction #introductions I'm moving back to octodon. https://octodon.social/web/accounts/3229 Ikea_femme@octodon.social
Love ya all, witches.
The extent of my social life is rolling my eyes in unison with retail employees after they get jerk customers.
*thinks about popplio*
*smiles*
It's great that I graduated college, but I'm anxious about what's next. Like, I'm 28, and have a bachelor's degree, and people are saying nice things. But I see so many much more successful people. I feel like being trans exposes me to peers who are struggling like I was when my depression was at its worst, and really successful people who can afford to live their best lives. And I feel like I'm in between and probably uncomfortable for both groups.
@nex3 not sure if I'm doing it right. The discount haircutter lopped all my hair off a month ago because she didn't understand my instructions to trim my split ends. I don't really like doing makeup when I'm not going on a date, because it makes me fixate on stuff I'd rather not fixated on. Like my jaw. And there I go. Fixating.
Some ones from days I felt myself more, too. #selfies4nat
Is it normal to feel mushier on estrogen at the 9 month mark? I'm surprisingly delicate yesterday and today. I got my first tears in probably years last night seeing Chelsea Manning in a swimsuit. But she was so happy and went through so much!
And then a guy liked me on OKC and he looked so smart and cool, and I cried that somebody like that could think I'm work his time. That's less explicable.
And I sort of don't want to be in a situation where I can get my voice right and my face "fixed."
I want the world to not care about it one way or the other first. So I'm doing it for me, and not for this terrible system where I have to earn womanhood.
And how for me, a lot of my biggest problems are from the way people categorize me based on stuff I can't cheaply change.
I can't afford facial feminization surgery. I hate to make my voice "passable." It hurts.
I realized I wasn't letting myself feel bad when I had stuff to feel bad about. So I went and wrote this to let myself feel bad and vent. It's about dysphoria and how much the shit to treat it sucks.
Imagine the person who's questioning and hears "Well, you could detransition and be gay/bi/straight..." and they're like "HOLY SHIT, WHAT? THAT'S ALLOWED?"
I came out to my coworkers at work since today is my last day and figured, hey, y'all know a trans person so consider that next time somebody talks shit. Nobody was surprised, so okay.
Middle aged lady asked if I was sure, if I ever tried being a bisexual man. So that was fun.
talking about nsfw trans stuff with my mom Afficher plus
talking about nsfw trans stuff with my mom Afficher plus
talking about nsfw trans stuff with my mom Afficher plus
talking about nsfw trans stuff with my mom Afficher plus
Not sure but think I might be having a growth spurt based on sensations. https://witches.town/media/aBvsd1b2T77Z8nuMxnI
lewdish, nsfwish, sunburn Afficher plus
thinking about dysphoria, question Afficher plus
the cryptocurrency model of "mining" which increases in difficulty over time so unjustly rewards the early adopters over people who are late to the party, I don't see how any anti-capitalist can support it.
@ikea_femme @listelian current gender: you're dead, this is the afterlife, and i'm God
Argh, why do I always end up letting group partners force me to do the bulk of the work in these comp sci courses? I always trust they'll get up to speed and help after they figure out the docs, and they always disappear until the last minute to say "Oh, hey, how about I make the powerpoint?"