✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

#exodus #introduction #introductions I'm moving back to octodon. https://octodon.social/web/accounts/3229 Ikea_femme@octodon.social

Love ya all, witches.

The extent of my social life is rolling my eyes in unison with retail employees after they get jerk customers.

My biggest fear is screencasting and they'll see my tiny monitor, cluttered desktop, shitty directories of abandoned projects, and crappy vim skills and I'll just type iDon't tell anyone how I live<esc>:wq

Thinking about applying for the Recurse center #programming retreat. I'm a trans woman fresh outta state college with a comp sci degree and no internships so I need to polish myself like yesterday. Anybody gone there? Good idea?

Also, CVS readyfill is the worst, and somehow even though I don't set it up, it keeps getting set up and I can't disable it from the website I request refills from. I don't always live in the same area.

the tedious irony of getting sirr'd while asking a pharmacy tech to transfer over your spiro and estradiol from a branch an hour and a half away to the local one.

Also, I'd hope Pride's progressed to the point you can have a tum and be queer.

It's a pride at a boardwalk, so there's gonna be sand and seaguls and junk so it feels thematic.

So how dumb would it be to wear this bikini bralette as a pseudo-crop top, these lemon jorts, and some kinda coverup I buy from five below or w/e as my pride outfit? I never bought any sort of stereotypical pride crap because my local target didn't get the pride stand and I didn't order anything online. https://witches.town/media/1lSMvLZdt8TDuqYe3Co https://witches.town/media/ucZ8Zoocjq6d4TReG8I

How bad an idea would it be to go to pride alone? Some of my friends suggested asking an OKC acquaintance to it, but I feel like that's too much for a first date. Like, to me, I feel like a first date needs a relatively tight plan, and I can barely get much more than the address and time for my disorganized local pride.

I wish I could get an orchi ASAP so I wouldn't have to take spiro anymore. The frequent urination's so annoying. But I don't want to have an empty scrotum I have to massage until I decide if I want GCS.

My feelings about GCS vary, but I figure I'd get it if I had the money and time for it, and that could be me in the future...

There's a lot going on here, I'd riff on it more as I have in the facebook group where I found this, but I want you to discover the little surprises yourself. Enjoy the worst Neopets area.. https://witches.town/media/w5KrebBmkSJ21q0du1U

Oooh, Mastodon strips EXIF location data. That's good!

Felt cute but not like shaving so you all have to deal with this terrible reality with me https://witches.town/media/xioCpkbu-zZnpDYiytU https://witches.town/media/weqWDE8tMU7TmtN96yI https://witches.town/media/IUg-gFWoJXu46EhK44I

Like, that's some dark stuff right there. I mean, I've only been drug to hot topic a handful of times, but print that on a tee shirt and the kids'll buy it up.

"He now lives within himself, which is a dangerous place for Donald Trump to be," a source reportedly close to the president told CNN.

That sounds like a terrible place for anybody to be.

But seriously, all the #trans women who cry all the time, was that how you always were? Did you just not develop that "dismiss/dissociate all feelings" defense mechanism? Or did you overcome it? I'm hopeful, but wondering if I'm counting on transition when even expensive therapy and new meds might not even help. :-/

Thinking I might beg my doc to give me progesterone. He doesn't believe it does any good, and that it raises breast cancer risk. That is a valid concern, but I want to fix this. :-/

Well, I just watched Grave of the Fireflies, because I figured I needed catharsis. Given I've broken up and started earnestly trying to feel things what with transition. I have more emotions with HRT, but they're still so shallow.

And yes, the movie was incredibly sad. But I didn't cry, and I feel like if I don't work to hold on to that sad, it'll fade away immediately.

I'm on a low dose of effexor. I wonder if that's blunting my affect. Or am I just a fraction of a person? Am I just some weird automaton, trying to stuff myself with feelings that will never stick?