✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

Hey, dumb question. 3.4 GPA with no experience or internships in computer science, graduating this August. I'd like to work in the NYC/NJ/PA area but if I have to go elsewhere in the country I will cope.

Am I too stupid/unambitious to work in software? Kind of want to sort these feelings out, because browsing LinkedIn and seeing all these experience requirements make me feel pretty miserable.

That isn't to say literal manager, just the person keeping her organized and pushing her to make appointments.

Well, just broke up with my fiancee slash best friend because codependency is awful.

I feel like a monster, I haven't dumped people before.

I hope she can find happiness. I also wish we could be friends, but I know it's not that simple. I even hope someday she recovers and is that sweet girl I met six years ago. But being her lover, therapist, and manager wasn't getting her there.

Like, I've mostly just heard the warning that cis straight men often are so aggressive you end up feeling used rather than that you made love.

so i'm getting a lot of male attention on OKC, and a lot of the guys actually seem kinda cute and cool, but I have no experience with guys and so many of them just have experience with cisgender women. Is that a red flag?

Also, is it normal around 7 months HRT to feel like you have two different flavors of sex drive, a sort of "look at a curvy woman and nut in 90 seconds" one and a "picture an evening of cuddling with a sturdy guy and just masticate that thought for the better part of an hour?" Or am I grossly applying stereotypical gendered sex drives on my junk? UGH.

I guess you could just cache the driving times between major cities and use that to make a reasonable guess for places between those towns. Not good for trip planning, but good enough for "Do I need to buy a tank of gas and plan bathroom breaks to see this hunny?"

They really ought to let you filter people by driving time rather than distance as a crow flies on dating sites.

I imagine that'd either require a ton of Google Map's api calls (do those get expensive?) or doing some kind of in-house map routing that's probably not resource cheap.

But you don't have to know about weighted unidirectional graphs to know Long Island is harder to get to than Philadelphia from any point in New Jersey.

A part of me wants to get the ball rolling on this with psychiatrists and so on, or at least figure out how to talk myself down to an orchiectomy instead. Although getting an orchi and needing to keep the skin elastic with daily massages sounds so hellish. And I think the fact I'm broke for any kind of luxury beyond a cute pair of shoes would become very apparent very quickly.

So I need to get serious about job searching.

Like, for me, I feel the same kind of longing thinking about people I follow online getting GCS that I felt as an egg looking at Christine Love.

I keep thinking, "Oh, did we really evolve to have surgeons rework our genitals?" and stuff, which I guess is your Lapsed Bible Study Teen Applying Old Fallacies to New Problems situation.

I feel womanhood, I see a woman from the waist up in the mirror, and I'm not happy having genitals I hide and used to think of ripping off.

Why am I making this so hard for myself?

I wonder if you could make a cute little miniature arcade laptop in a cigar box? Put the guts and the screen in the big part, and space it out so the joysticks stick up in the empty space...

I think I've realized I want GCS, but I kind of force myself from accepting I want it because I know it's so pricey and the first step towards getting it, for me, in a way I can feel proud of, is getting a job with either a serious enough paycheck or insurance plan to cover trans surgeries.

Soooooo, it's millenial adulthood worries, but with a neoyonic twist.

I really want a GBA Micro, but I really don't want to pay a collector's price for one.

I wonder if any places have tried making an emulation system with that form factor.

Finally at that point in laser treatment recovery where the skin calms down and the hairs start popping out. I try to shave smooth, but they look so huge when they actually come off when I wash my face. :3

egg me anthem https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENxbcvUXfnM

Hopefully he'll find it funny when I say, "Oh hey, it's great you're willing to try dating a girl like myself and you don't look like a bad guy. But you had my name before transition and I don't need that drama and/or dysphoria in my life, bro."

I just accidentally right swiped a guy with my deadname and he matched

I HATE EVERYTHING. ONLINE DATING IS BAD