✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

I mean, I like May Kasahara from either angle but STILL, Murakami. I feel like you'd write from the wall or the well's perspective sooner.

Do all #Murakami #books take place from the emotionally numb guy's perspective? Or does he sometimes do it from the quirky girl's perspective? Because while I have a lot of shared experiences with the numb guy, I really think I'm the quirky girl now. Hormones are like that.

Man changing transition boundaries are weird. Chatting with a good cis guy friend, I mention I got the courage to try on a bikini today, and almost send him a pic of a hot sec, and then I'm all "Wait, I was roommates with this guy and we were SUPER UNCOMFORTABLE seeing each other nude then, so that might still apply? Better google this and see if there's a trans-inclusive appendix in the bro-code."

Do manga fans just read fan-localized #manga in the browser? There's like no CBR link or anything and writing a python script to download each page feels RUDE.

I need to know if the French localization of the Nintendo Switch game Arms is called Bras.

PS: also forgot they suggested Wandering Son, which sounds good, too.

Also, is Kindle Paperwhite decent for reading black and white #manga? Don't have a lot of room for dead-tree books.

ARGH I hate how dysphoria never feels the same way with the same stimulus. So I ask some anime/manga loving pals if there's any good manga that actually address gender well. I mean, I'd just seen Your Name, and reading Haruki Murakami helped me describe my dysphoria better.

BUT THEN I go and google prunus girl, forgetting how much manga fans and chan culture intersect, and somehow seeing "trap" really fucking hurts today, even though it just made me roll my eyes in the past.

Dumb brain.

Nothing makes me feel more subhuman than knowing I'm bad at mingling and making conversation.

Depression and dysphoria? Hi pals. Strangers staring? Why yes, I think I'm unique and worth a gander, too. Trying to figure out how to mingle at a party or bar? I'm a human shaped creature that can understand language but is too autistic to chat.

Dumb 3am fixation. Do I have to be into anal penetration or into the bottom role to be a good candidate​ for bottom surgery? I have castration thoughts on my worst days, and hate when an outfit doesn't work because I can't tuck for it. I just still get off to the same stuff (mostly fantasies about women's bodies with very little actual sex in my imagination, and the occasional one where I picture getting penetrated in my hypothetical vag by a guy) and haven't really been with anyone who isn't very vanilla.

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Can't decide between swimming or running tonight. I'm worse at swimming than running, but have more fun swimming. And swimming exercise programs are so tedious to read...