✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

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@natecull The best are unicode security exploits that rely on homographs and/or reencoding, all because the UI team really wanted emojis in the username/password to work.

@bea I guess this confirms it: People see my browline, my deep voice, and my strong jaw, and think to themselves: This is a computer science degreeholder who does not know how to negotiate for a salary.

Never before has the reality of being a #trans woman computer science graduate been more clear.

A couple on OKC asked me to be their unicorn, told me to consider applying for the startup they work with. I've been headhunted and unicorn hunted, but never at the same time?!

Lol everyone in Soho is so pretty and I look like I'm here to develop my computer science skills and wear makeup. And I'm not sure how to wear makeup.

I like French because you can write I dunno on a restaurant sign in NYC but in French and it looks romantic

It's great that I graduated college, but I'm anxious about what's next. Like, I'm 28, and have a bachelor's degree, and people are saying nice things. But I see so many much more successful people. I feel like being trans exposes me to peers who are struggling like I was when my depression was at its worst, and really successful people who can afford to live their best lives. And I feel like I'm in between and probably uncomfortable for both groups.

@nex3 not sure if I'm doing it right. The discount haircutter lopped all my hair off a month ago because she didn't understand my instructions to trim my split ends. I don't really like doing makeup when I'm not going on a date, because it makes me fixate on stuff I'd rather not fixated on. Like my jaw. And there I go. Fixating.

Some ones from days I felt myself more, too. #selfies4nat

@bea I mean, I tell people boobs so they don't think I'm crazy, but that's really second...

@bea I mostly wanted more feelings from hrt, so it's an amazing development. I've been incredibly numb since puberty

Is it normal to feel mushier on estrogen at the 9 month mark? I'm surprisingly delicate yesterday and today. I got my first tears in probably years last night seeing Chelsea Manning in a swimsuit. But she was so happy and went through so much!

And then a guy liked me on OKC and he looked so smart and cool, and I cried that somebody like that could think I'm work his time. That's less explicable.

@Eve Glad you liked it! I think part of it is just accepting limits I'll have to live within, but maybe future generations won't have to deal with. The fact the limits exist for awful reasons is so painful though.

And I sort of don't want to be in a situation where I can get my voice right and my face "fixed."

I want the world to not care about it one way or the other first. So I'm doing it for me, and not for this terrible system where I have to earn womanhood.

And how for me, a lot of my biggest problems are from the way people categorize me based on stuff I can't cheaply change.

I can't afford facial feminization surgery. I hate to make my voice "passable." It hurts.

I realized I wasn't letting myself feel bad when I had stuff to feel bad about. So I went and wrote this to let myself feel bad and vent. It's about dysphoria and how much the shit to treat it sucks.

https://medium.com/@mccartyt1/it-hurts-940e27f3123a

I forgot to wear deet for this run so I'm probably going to get bit by the mosquitos, but on the other hand the itches will take my mind off Trump being as much of a nuclear warlord as we feared