✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

I wish I could stop processing that I exist at a junction between unfuckable and fetishized.

Like, I miss organically getting to like somebody at a party, and I feel that won't happen, because the parties I tend to get invited to are mostly straight people, who will probably have hangups about dating a trans woman. Until I see compelling evidence otherwise, I'm assuming most people will just consider what's between my legs a dealbreaker by default.

So I have to figure out online dating.

Did you know you can get high, and still have a girl reflection? Transition has so many great surprises.

https://curiouscat.me/ikea_femme

Made a curious cat

@headpats_bot when ur gf buys leeks and milk

this is a thing people told me to sign up for so i can get honest feedback

https://ikeafemme.sarahah.com

@grime_witch https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rVOhYROKeu4 my dripcoin mining rig

I feel so worn out. I build a network of friends, and I'm happy about it, but then I ignore that they out me to people without asking me, and they live a lifestyle I can't keep up with financially. And... Ugh. I know it's not quite right, and maybe I deserve better, but it's what I have, and loneliness hurts now that I'm letting myself feel things.

Are there any good quality vaginoplasty FAQs or whatever out there? I hate googling this stuff, since most of the results look super old or sketchy or are just some forum posts. And I have some really embarrassing basic questions.

@gzt amen

https://www.vox.com/policy-and-politics/2017/7/24/16019984/obamacare-repeal-republican-flow-chart

This flowchart explains what's happening.

I wish it wasn't happening.

Be strong friends.

I like to think if there's another fair election, single payer will happen one way or another.

I don't like to imagine there not being another fair election.

My receipt from the walk in clinic has my sex listed twice, once as m, once as f. I wonder if my databases professor will give me extra credit for being a walking validation test.

Is there a way to cope with having less/no feelings if that's just my reality? What am I here for if my experience is just text without meaning? Or instead tiny bits of meaning that I have to work so damn hard for? Other people can cry over cereal ads, or lyrics to Leonard Cohen songs, without meds or transitioning or whatever.

I wish I could stop getting random anxiety about whether or not I pass. I wish I could pretend it didn't matter to me.

I think I do a lot of the time, but I can never know, and get so worked up over dumb crap. Like, that guy who smirked at me today, was it flirtatious or him figuring me out?

I come from a family where women tend to have hard features. My mom has been clocked. That's her in black and white.

@TipsyTentacle ugh, that argument is depressing. I'm leaning towards inclusivity, but understand the impulse to want the queer community to be specific people and not just everyone who isn't into heterosexual cisgender monogamy.

you: fun bags
me, on hrt: validation bags

@aprrrl I'm thinking I'll try another LGBT clinic after all. Kind of want to try progesterone.

Timely for me

RT @upandoutcomic: July 14th, 2017. Ahhhhhhh yes, going to the doctor is fun. He definitely not awful and doesn't make me feel othered at all. https://t.co/WjcKmwjIaR

HRT doctor. Pun not intended

Very close to breaking up with my her doctor. Should I try to find another doctor who does hrt, or can I just ask a gp (in the US) to write these scripts?