✨Spirit Halloween⚧Femme✨ @ikea_femme@witches.town

@bea By single server, I mean single Apache or Nginx or whatever running the same ruby interpreter for each Mastodon. (This is ruby, right?)

@bea Do you mean like a single server running each instance as a separate app? Sorry if this is a dumb way of putting it. Web dev and ops are things I only casually get, and I'm trying to get in the habit of asking questions instead of acting smart and cool.

I should really get in on the positive thinking self-help book pseudocult racket.

Like, not directly, but through the karmic auras that make shit break. Tedious computer shit makes me think bad vibes can cause cosmic rays to wreck your stuff.

The fact even the gif is broken is yet another sign this thing is hecked up https://i.makeagif.com/media/6-13-2015/_FxfM3.gif

It's the kind of numbers that make me wonder what the hell broke that bad to get that reading. https://witches.town/media/KKfPwfZAwu-TnKIsLrA

I hate how slow this hard drive is on my "fast" desktop replacement laptop, but my "fast" laptop is from 2013 so I'm not sure I should spend money on it.

It's a magnetic hard disk that Windows diagnostics says is transferring at 1.2 mbps. Weird and annoying, especially on the computer that's meant for games and CPU intensive stuff my Atom netbook shouldn't do faster. But the ssd makes that one "feel" faster!

@kara_dreamer I got that, too. My thing was shaving my legs, and seeing "my" legs for the first time instead of "the legs I have." I think we develop a coping mechanism of dissociating from the wrong body and life and all that, and we lean on it less as we transition. Good luck!

I think my coworkers officially think I'm a cis. I lifted a 20 inch terracotta planter and they were all, "Damn, ikea_femme, do you work out or something?" And it was all I could do not to say, "I am lazy and on spironolactone and my broad shoulders are my albatross, I am glad my muscle structure amuses you."

@kara_dreamer good luck! I've felt much calmer and I guess socially warmer on spiro and estradiol.

@ikea_femme it shouldn't be such a factor, but cis ideas that plastic surgery is for vain weirdos is a big thing scaring me away from any kind of surgery. Even relatively mundane, "This looks weird or makes me dysphoric" surgeries a cis person wouldn't consider.

@kara_dreamer same meds!

@morganastra @nire ah Wendy

@PoojaSlays @alice heck yeah we do

Ty mom's tivo for suggesting Botched from E! A quality morning reminder people will think less of me if I save up for any kind of surgery and there's a good chance the drs I can afford will fuck up!

The fact estradiol and generic Adderall look exactly the same is probably fuel for some kind of stupid comedy hijinks.